She Won't Stop Telephoning Me :)

SOFIA ALVAREZ

Sofia...... You're in my blog! ;P

First of all,thank you for always cheering me up when I'm down.you did that again earlier this evening.

I just want you to know,Sofia, that I appreciate and love you,and I think you are cool and awesome (there,I said it.hehe). It surprises me that we have so many things in common, but what can I say?You have good taste. :)

Also,when I see your photo or name, they give me a feeling that you are very responsible and rational when it comes to things. That's where we differ.Whereas I am stubborn, you are chill and relaxed, enjoying every moment. Whereas I panic, you help me understand how things work their way.

Thank you,Sofia, for being such a sweet heart. Maybe you do not have any idea of how much I value you and how nice it feels when I am talking to you,but I really do appreciate you.

Rihanna is so lucky to have a fan as amazing as you are,Sofia.

I love you,not with all my heart. I love you with all of me. :)

My SITSters!

VICTORIA JAYNE TELLING

Hehe,ain't I cool?Sitsters! Hahaha XD

Vicky,who is turning 17 on the 27th, I love you.

For spending 4-5 hours sat on your bedroom floor just reading She Is The Sunlight, you stole my heart away.

For spending the next two hours talking to me through Fanfiction private messages, you painted a smile on my face.

You. Are. Exceptional.

I simply adore you.If that is not obvious enough,sharpen your nails and dig my heart out of my chest.You'll see, in between the plasters and breaks,your name is written all over it.

I know you're going through a lot right now,Vicky.You have us in front of you.Not behind, girl, take note of that. I'd rather hurt before you.I wish I could take all your sorrows away,you know? I want to be the one who saves you.

Vicky,I love you.We both know that.Heck, everybody knows that. And whatever it is that comes into your life,you have my support in everything. Do not be afraid to get hurt sometimes. Do not be afraid of love,for that's what ties us together. I know you'll make it through everything.I just know.

The day I met you is one of the best days of my life. The day we became three IS the best day ever. Like what I always say, Vick,I could possibly meet a thousand other people, but like a star that glows in the dark,you will always have a special place in my sky.

I LOVE YOU.

~Seann

LOUISE MURPHY

Laaaaal.

It's been five months,Lal! Can you believe it?

Sometimes,I go thinking about how my life could have been if I didn't sign up for an account in Fanfiction. Now I realize,it was fate.

It was fate that we met and have each other to run to when the rest of the world walks out.

It was fate that we beat the odds.

It was fate that we be good where one is bad, be happy where one is sad. Just like fire and ice, we balance each other.

I could never thank you enough for coming into my life,Louise.You don't know what hell I was in before you.I was a zombie. A snob zombie. A snob zombie that couldn't care less about others. And loves Jackson Rathbone.

There are things that are hard to explain.Our age gap could not form a bridge between the differences in our opinions,but somehow,we work it out.

I hate the things and people that hurt you,Louise,you should know that. If only I could put my foot down and let them see how much you mean to me,they will know.They will never harm you.

It upsets me when the world acts cruel towards you.Someone as beautiful as you are doesn't deserve such harsh treatment,just bear that in your mind.And if you need a back up,call me.

I could never afford to lose you both in my life.

Because we were never really complete until we found each other.

Just like Jasper and Alice.

<3

Ashleyholics Anonymous: We Love Choco Drinks!

RANI NUGROS

My queen..I have a confession to make.I have a crush on your brother. :D

Rani, you have made an impact in my life. A bad impact,to be exact. Mehehe!

I don't know what to say.Can I start by saying I love you? Well then...I love you.

I love you and the passion we share for Ashley Greene.Seriously,Rani,if I could find away to be with her,I will send you there instead of myself.I think you,more than anyone else,deserves that.

And even when you are always teasing me,I know that's just your way of showing that you love me. Bleh. Bleh. I love you too,Rani.More than you could ever imagine. I love you and the way I sing Rani to the tune of Beat It. And most importantly,I love you for being you.

My first tweet to you was "we love the same girl", now,when I think about it,I laugh at myself cause I sounded like an idiot,which I probably was,anyway.I was just surprised to see so many Ashley fans back then,because before that,I was by myself.

I know all of your dreams will come true if you work hard enough to achieve them.I have complete and unmovable (is that even a word?) faith in you,Rani. I know one day,you will make us proud.

I LOVE YOU,never ever change.

~SEANN <3

LESLIE KORALEWSKI

Mi bonita... I miss you so terribly. :(

Leslie...I don't know how we got this close.All I know is that you are now listed on my Facebook as a sister,and damn if it did not make me happy. To me,it's more than Facebook.We may not have the same blood running through our veins, but in my heart,you are,and will always be,my sister.

Sometimes yo call me Mom cause I act like one.Truth is,I am overprotective of you because I worry about you.It's the least I can do to show you that you are loved and cared for,and that you have a true friend in me even if I am miles away from you.

You are beautiful,remember that,okay?And if something upsets you,I am just here.You can tell me all about it and we will find a way to fix what is broken.

I love you,and you are worth everything to me,my little sister.

I Love Love Love You!

KATIE D' ALESSANDRO

O_o WHO IS THIS PRETTY GIRL ON MY BLOG!!!

Wow Katie,yes,I creeped on your Facebook page.I told you already,I love you in a creepy way.

Haha kidding!But really! Why are you this pretty! This is so unfair!

Okay,I'll talk now.

Katie.... The tweet you sent me tonight is just one of the things that will always make me smile. Thank you for that,and for always believing in me and my non-existent abilities. ;) You are one of the first few friends I have made over the internet,and you are one of the most entertaining among them. I can still remember when it was 2 pm here and it was 2 AM there, and we were planning on how we would nab Jackson Rathbone, cause we are so cool like that.

Our random conversations will always stay in my mind, and like a photo in someone's wallet,I will pull them out when I want to smile.You are definitely a beautiful girl, inside and out, and you deserve to be happy.

I miss talking to you,you know? I can't forget how funny it is when we talk about the most random things, and your reviews always make me smile.ALWAYS, Katie, every single one, because it is obvious that you put effort into them.Not only effort, emotions too.

I think I'll end it here or you'll start being creeped out.Hahaha. I love you,don't forget that beautiful! <3

~Seann

The Sickest Chick You've Never Met?

MONICA SIEGEL

I first met Monica through Formspring.She seemed to be interested in my tweets,so we started following each other on Twitter. I will never forget the kindness she has shown me almost everyday. In fact,I don't know where to start now.

Of all the people I have met on the internet,I guess I could say Monica is one of the most mature and understanding. She never forgets to tell me how much she appreciates and values me, and I can't help but tear up a little every time.I could never get used to her praises,her kind words.She always makes me feel good about myself.

Anyway,Monica was one of those campers who attended the Eclipse premiere.She met Caitie Uhlmann there (girl crush alert!!!) and asked her for an autograph....And now she's planning to send it to me,together with American candies.

I don't know what to say,Monica. You barely know me,and yet you have shown me the most incredible love I have known in my life.I still say you do not have to send it,because it really would cost a lot.As they say,it's the thought that counts.

My point though is not the candy nor the signature.It's your ability to give so much love to an almost stranger like me.When I first found out about this,I was freaking out because I couldn't believe someone so far thought about me in the Eclipse premiere.Of all the people in the world,you chose to give me something so precious,and I don't even know what I did to ever deserve such love.

Monica,you are a blessing to me.I will never ever forget you.From that day you wrote on my Formspring,I have started loving you,and you will always be loved for as long as I am breathing.How did you know that I needed someone exactly like you?You made me believe that love really isn't defined by distance.Thank you for being beautiful,thank you for having a really beautiful heart.

I love you.

Originality Is So Overrated...

I don't know where to start. Sometimes,the truth is always the hardest to say. The truth is always the hardest to show.The truth is always the hardest to handle.The truth is always the hardest to know.

If you would time travel to my life a year ago and find me,you would probablt get snickered and bickered at. I was a spoiled bratt. I never talk to anyone unless I was spoken to. I never cared about others,so long as I got what I wanted,I could never be happier.

Things change,and people do to. I changed. A lot. For the better,I hope.

Now,I like to think I am a better person than the girl I used to be. Still,I cannot look straight in the mirror without despising myself. Everybody thinks I am good. Some even say I am pretty--I'm uncomfortable with things like this.I'm uncomfortable with compliments. They make me fret and feel like I'm bound to disappoint people.

Some girls look up to me like I'm some kind of a hero or something. Again,this makes me uncomfortable. The way they show their love for me is just so touching and rewarding,but sometimes,I feel like I can't accept it. I feel like I don't deserve that much love, because I have yet to prove to myself that I am as good as they expect me to be.

And then there are those people who only befriend me to use me. I know lots of them from school... They would be so nice to me just so the people who are nice to me would be nice to them too. Recently, there is this someone copying my style. Trying hard to be like me... And that upsets me every time. Not because I'm scared she'd be better than me--I've thought about that for a moment and that's simply not the reason I'm dismayed. I'm dismayed because all this time I really considered her one of my friends... I've been mentally giving chances to see if she will change...

But she doesn't. In fact,it grows worse with time. She copied my style, and now,she also says whatever I say. It's worrying me because it seems like she doesn't really care about me,after all. She just cares about the image she projects to the world.She wants to prove to the world that she is beautiful,and all I want to tell her is that the world will see your beauty no matter what...That you don't have to do anything to force it out of them.But I can't. I can't hurt her like that.

That day,I realized how cruel this world can really be. I have been living in a fairy tale where everything is in shades of purple and pink.I had faith in my heart that sooner or later,she'd realize that being true to yourself is more important than faking it to feel good about yourself. Perhaps,we all have that in us. That one tiny spark of evil that provokes us to go and chase our desires,no matter what or who we step on on the way.Are we all strong enough to say no to the evil? Yes,we are.

I had a talk with Yasmina the other night about this.Right now,she's one of the few people I genuinely trust.She made me realize that people do take advantage of the weak.Apparently,I belong with the weak.It still upsets me though.All I ever wanted is to be good---to live my life for others--to make it all worthwhile...I hope people realize that no matter what they do,there is only one me,and they can never be that,exactly.

Six Billion Secrets. I Have Two. What's Yours?

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Two of these posts are mine. Can you guess which of these are submitted by yours truly?

And can you state the reason why? Haha... State it on the comments section. :P

That's all for today. :)

If You Knew How Happy You Are Making Me...I Never Thought That I'd Love Anyone So Much...

Don't you find it funny or strange when a certain scent, song, color, or thing remind you of someone?

To me,it is like an imprint. That certain something will always be attached to someone's name, and wherever, whenever, whatever I am doing, when that thing presents itself to me,I will always remember the person.

It's july already. I can't believe how fast time passes by nowadays. You go to bed one summer night, and then you'll wake up and find that another year has gone. It's rainy season again, and just as the rain waters flood the streets, memories and dreams flood my mind.

The rain will always remind me of my dream life in the future. I may be high maintenance at times, but I will always remain a simple girl at heart. When it rains, I envision myself relaxing in my own home, curled up in a sofa positioned beside the window,just watching the raindrops fall, listening to the thunder roll, a cup of warm chocolate in hand, jazz music playing on the background.

I never wanted a huge house. I dream of a small but decent one, three bedrooms, a nice kitchen, soft beige colored walls, a roll of thick carpeting and oriental rugs on the floor.I want a front porch painted in immaculate white,with two lounge chairs perfect for viewing the stars at night.I want a huge garden, a really huge one where I can grow different breeds of roses and orchids, and dandelions.I want warm and dim garden lamps installed,and a willow tree in the back yard to serve as shade when it's barbecue weekend.

I want a stable job that would not require me to go abroad and stay away from my loved ones. I may want to have my own charitable organization someday. I want a car--not a fancy one, but perhaps a Toyota RAV4, Fortuner, or Yaris, or maybe a Honda Jazz or a Nissan Monterosport, a Hyundai Santa Fe, or, if I am lucky enough, a Ford Expedition. I really don't care about details, so long as it is a family car. A white family car.

Above all these, I dream of going home to a delicious smelling dinner made by the man of my dreams. He would serve it on the table, with thin white smoke still steaming from the bowl of rice. He would ask me how my day has been, and in the mornings I would knot his tie and kiss him goodbye before we leave for work. He would drive a bubbly little girl to and from school, and she would sit on his lap at home, her brunette curls reaching her shoulders, and together we would teach her how to draw a star. At night, we would make the time to say goodnight to her, and read to her about Cinderella or Snow White.

And as time progresses we would sometimes fall,but would help each other back up all the time. We would have our own share of misunderstandings, but we would always sort it out. We would watch our children grow, and walk them down the aisle, tearing up every time.

Eventually, we would sit on the porch, hand in hand, in perfect silence. We would look at each other and smile, and when it rains, we would always remember that it all began with a dream.

From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart

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Well hello, I have been flamed again. :)

After weeks of not updating my Fanfiction The Day You Said Goodnight, I decided that tonight, it's about time I do, since I have free time.

But then again, maybe I decided wrong. First review for my latest chapter: FLAME.

Aurike, you see, doesn't like tragic stories. I mean I understand her. She also flamed me in Chasing Rainbows. And now, she couldn't understand why Jasper had to choose between ALice and the baby, because according to her, we now have advanced (modern, whatever...) technology like the Ceasarian section wherein Alice could give birth to the baby without harming any of them...

So I said, this is the plot of my story. If this wouldn't happen, my story would be pointless because then it wouldn't revolve around anything. Believe me, I hate plotless stories.

She responded with the private message above. Again, I understand her point, but it's not that easy to not take it personally when she said "your doctors are just stupid".

First of all, I wrote those Doctors. I was the one to give them souls and lives, so that meant I am stupid for writing them like that. Okay, I am stupid. She just basically called me stupid, and I am not hurt. It's fine.

Second, she called me cruel for writing stories like this. Well then, I hope she could give me some tips and suggestions in what I should write next because clearly, she doesn't like what I am doing right now. I would really want to know what she wants to read so that I could please her...So I am cruel, and I am slightly hurt. Does she even know me personally to say this to me? I don't know, cause she is hidden behind a computer screen. No photos, no stories, no description of herself.

Third, she speaks as if she knows everything there is to know about life. Let me ask, has she had a friend who gave birth to a dead infant? Well, my friend did. She was not even sick when she was pregnant with her baby. That was last year. She and the baby were perfectly healthy, they could afford all those modern technology, and her husband didn't have to choose. Still, my point here is that the baby DIED. The baby came out DEAD even after all the smiles and assurances that everything would work out fine. Now,compare this to my story, which is worse? Does this mean that the Author of my friend's life is cruel like me, or maybe even more? No, cause life happens like that. That's what I have been trying to inject on her mind from the very start, but Aurike just wouldn't buy it.

I am never an angry person, you know? I rarely get mad because i always try to put myself on someone's shoes before judging them, but this is just too much for me to handle. Just please,if you have nothing good to say, just don't review, alright? I appreciate constructive criticism, but your criticism is just plain criticism--you create them to bring me down, and trust me,you almost succeeded but I am one tough girl. If I am, by any means, disappointing you with my writings, then, quit reading them. It's as easy and simple as that... I don't know why you even bother in the first place.

This would be the last time I'd address this issue. I just want to make my point clear, because it seems to me that you cannot see it. I don't think you know me personally,so please have some respect and stop using adjectives to describe me.Introduce yourself to me, tell me what you want, and maybe we could even be friends. I want you to be happy, but it looks like your happiness depends on bringing me down,so I regret to inform you that should you keep up with this,you will never know true happiness.

So long, Aurike. I'll be waiting for your suggestions on how I can write better stories. Perhaps you know better than I do. And please, I want to read some of your works too. If you are not too busy making other people miserable, please make time to write one.

Thanks.

Seann.

Respect Is A Two Way Road

I actually didn't spot this particular scene in the movie. :(

Because of Eclipse's different screening days for different countries, Twihards and some not so hard fans are having a hard time getting along on the net. The reason? Spoilers.

I repeat.

Spoilers.

Yes,the bits of movie information that some people who have already seen the movie are posting on Twitter. Those who have to wait are complaining because they feel like we are spoiling the movie for them. (I am not really involved with this, I never posted any spoiler except for my previous blog post which was labeled with "Alert" so it doesn't count.)

In my own humble opinion, some of the guys who haven't seen the movie yet are being irrational. You are going way overboard over this petty thing. Don't hate me, okay? It's just that...I understand where you are coming from. Your point is that you want to wait for the movie and see it without knowing in advance what to expect, but let's face it. You cannot stop the people who have seen it if they want to talk about the movie. It is their right,you know?

You are asking for them to respect you and the fact that you haven't seen the movie yet. Let me just tell you that to gain respect,you must give respect. You can ask politely ("Please do not post spoilers,we are yet to see the movie" is so much better than "Stop posting spoilers! Just fucking stop!") Trust me, you would never get your way with the latter.

Again,these people have all the right to talk about the movie because first of all,they paid to see it.Second,it is their Twitter accounts they are using to post such things, and there is a fat chance that they do not intend to spoil the movie for you. They are just happy and so content that they want to talk about it.Is that so bad?

I think the best solution for this is just unfollow them if you do not like what they are posting, or get off of Twitter until you see the movie. We can't do anything about it,anyway. They will post spoilers whatever you do or say,so just get rid of them.

To those of us who have seen the movie, please respect our friends who are still waiting.Do not post lines and scenes unless you are being asked to. Try to minimize giving away the movie in your tweets. You can always talk about how the movie made you feel,but tweeting what EXACTLY happened and what the characters did and said is just plain annoying to those who hate spoilers. If someone asks about the movie,perhaps we could answer them in DMs so that if it happens to have any spoilers,at least it will not be posted publicly.

Let us avoid having arguments and fights about things as shallow as this. After all, Eclipse will leave the theaters in time and we'll be back with each other again. We are like one family here. We should be there for each other come what may. Just ask politely and give without complaining.

Work on teams, life is all about give and take.